LIFE…

Sometimes life does not happen like you expect it. Life does not care about how well you write down in your planner how great tomorrow will be. Life don’t care too much about how many degrees you have accumulated during the years, Nor how much money you have. Life is not bias! It’s here for anyone and everyone with a beating heart and breath. No one is exempt from this thing called life. you can’t run from it you just have to accept it and live through it.

Using my life as an example. I got married at 21 then found myself Divorced at 26… Was it all planned? No… I don’t know anyone that has gotten married to divorce. You see we have our own plans but life has it’s own course. We can either fight against life and Lose or we can go with it and learn what we need too and Win!

Life caught me off guard and put me in a uncomfortable place, a foreign place I’ve never been before. I was lost!  You see that’s what “Life” does. It specialize in putting you in an unknown place, a foreign place, a place that will wake up fear and confusion all at once. You’ll find yourself in a place where there is no negotiation. No matter where life decides to take you. Whether it’s through a Sickness, a Divorce, Betrayal, A Failed Relationship, An Eviction, A Lost Job, Lost A Spouse, A Heart Break there will be no warning. You have to just “Adjust” a word most people don’t like because it sounds like your “settling”; but that’s far from what I’m saying. If you look at the definition of Settling, it means “to accept or agree to (something that one considers to be less than satisfactory)” basically giving up. That is far from what I’m saying. Adjust means “to alter or move (something) slightly in order to achieve the desired fit, appearance, or result:” meaning using what we have or what is given to us to go through and make it.

          Use what you got. Change your perception! See life as a friend and not your enemy. See life as the professor and see yourself as the student. Don’t ever fight against the waves of life but adjust to it and find another way to make it. We all were born with the exact armor to fight this battle to some of us this war. Using God’s wisdom is one of the tools we have to use. See; the longer you endure through life the wiser you become. Wisdom is a gift from God only given to those that are willing to receive it through the good time and the bad. Some of you might feel lost and not know what you got that can help you go through life. Well, let me help you with some tools that can definitely help you overcome this thing called “Life”.

Patience, Forgiveness, Kindness, Perseverance, humility, Positivity, but your greatest weapon that will always overcome whatever you face unexpectedly with “Life” will always and forever be

 

 

But, God….!

I know someone has a *but God* in their belly… “I was about to lose my mind… But, God!” “I was about to give up… But,God!” Comment if you had a *But God* moment… #FeelLikeShouting #TodayIsTheBestDayOfYourLife #stayencourage #staypositive #staymotivated #GodOverEverything #ButGod Share/Repost if you got a but God…

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But, God….!

I know someone has a *but God* in their belly… “I was about to lose my mind… But, God!” “I was about to give up… But,God!” Comment if you had a *But God* moment… #FeelLikeShouting #TodayIsTheBestDayOfYourLife #stayencourage #staypositive #staymotivated #GodOverEverything #ButGod Share/Repost if you got a but God…

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I know someone has a *but God* in their belly… “I was about to lose my mind… But, God!” “I was about to give up… But,God!” Comment if you had a *But God* moment… #FeelLikeShouting #TodayIsTheBestDayOfYourLife #stayencourage #staypositive #staymotivated #GodOverEverything #ButGod Share/Repost if you got a but God…

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I Found Love….

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Ever wonder what Love is?

As a child I always wrote about love but never knew what it was.

The older I got, the more I experienced… the more my mind changed concerning Love.

So what love really is I asked myself, what components consist of Love.

Is it a lie…?  Is it suppose to hurt; physically or emotionally?

Does it put you down? Does it cheat? Does it gives up and turns its back on you…?

This is what I allowed Love to be, because I lacked the knowledge.

But all of that pushed and draw me closer to wanting to know more, I wasn’t satisfied…

See Love does not leave you empty but it gives you the urge of wanting more of it.

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So that leads to the question…

Does Love really exists..?

Well, speaking from my opinion and years of searching…

Yes!!! Love Does Exist….

Now I’m sure your wondering How, so?

Through my search for Love I came across someone.

Yes I met someone antithetic. I was intrigued  by His presence.

The more I got to know Him, the more I learned about myself and expectations.

My perspective changed significantly. That is when I got a reality check…

I was wrong about what Love is all along…

The more time I spent with Him, the more I understood Loves existence.

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(He showed me patience…)

I felt unworthy and inadequate to finding someone with such greatness in my life.

Which caused me to slowly drift away from Him. He had high expectations of me, but because of my insecurities it caused me to not

work within my true potential.

I felt like I could not get anything right. (He remained Patient)

He told me that He knew I would get it right one day and that He will be their until I do…

(He showed me kindness)

Life left a a bitter taste in my mouth, which causes me sometimes to relapse sometimes; But He understood me.

He remained kind anyways… He did not care if I deserved it or not…

It was their for me 24/7…

He always uplifted me with kind words… Words like “Your Beautiful”, “Your Worth It”, “You Can Do It”, “I Believe In You”…

He motivated me to be better… To be kind to everyone else around me…

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(He exposed me to humility.)

Till this day I have never seen Him prideful, arrogant, or boastful about anything…

Though He had every reason to, He remained humble…

The wisdom of dying to self…

He never dishonored me, but He celebrated me every time I did something right…

*Just by talking about Him makes me smile*

Its amazing how He puts me first above all.

I remembered walking out on Him thinking He would get frustrated or even angry with me;

But He only did the opposite and loved me some more…

His wrath I never witness… Even in His corrections.

I have to be honest and open with you…

I was barely faithful to Him.

I left Him over and over again..

Yup; I did Him wrong numerous of times,

It’s not that He took me back every time that I could not comprehend…

But it’s the fact that He never left… (Hun?)

He forgave me for it all and held no record of it…

Till this day He has never brought up my past… I’m the one who did not know how to let go…

I had to pinch myself and wonder if this was real…

Only to find out; it is…

Yes He protected me from all harm.

He trust me even when I did not trust my own self.

He never ran out of hope, matter of fact He gave me hope….!

When things around me started to crumble, I mean everything…

When things around me did not make sense…

He preserved me.

So you know me. I had to ask Him “When is all this going to end?”.

My carnal mind could only understand the carnal things…

My mentality was… Good things don’t usually last so I had to ask.

And He responded with such a gentle voice and said, “My Love Has No Deadline”.

“Nothing You Do Could Keep Me From Loving You”

Love never fails…

Sometimes I tell myself I don’t deserve His Love…

But because of Love I don’t want to hurt Him nor disappoint Him any more… I did better…

I have never felt so free…!

I have never felt so beautiful…!

I have never felt so worthy…!

I had so many insecurities, but now watch me strut….

His ongoing love made me become a much better woman… My whole mindset has changed.

I am no longer who I use to be but I have became Love.

All this leads me to this question…

Can Someone Really Love…?

Yes, It is possible…

It is possible to receive Love and give it…

Through my experience the He and Him was all referred to God.

Anyone that posses God… I believe they can truly Love.

Anyone can Love…

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Because God is Love…

SN: Love is mostly alive when their is  Lies, Cheating, Hurt, Pain, Abuse, or any wrong…

Love goes after the imperfections and make them perfect…)

*Love Conquers All*

 

SHADES

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Why do you hide behind  those shades…? I asked her

Her respond:

Its to hide away the tears that I don’t want no one to see.

Its to hide the pain in my eyes.

You see… My shades don’t judge me.

They are their to protect me from the hard sun light called life…

I have them to protect my identity because I’m not confident in who I am anymore..

My shades cover up my hurts and my scars… 

It covers up my insecurities…

I feel much safer that way…

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My Response:

Take off those shades….

Its OK to show your tears… Your eyes shine and gets a glow afterwards.

Your pain is beautiful your scars are unique, look just like mine.

Look at me, I wont judge you… We all make mistakes… we all hurt.

Please Remove the shades 

Those shades hide your beauty “Your Beautiful”

The only way you’ll find out who you truly are if you take off those shades…

(She then slowly took off the shades and she resembled me)

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The Woman In Me

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You ask me if I was happy. Well can’t you see my smile…?

 I am good where I’m at, I haven’t cried in a while…

I’m getting stronger day by day; I’ve found another way through

 God has rescued this little girl and made her all bran new…

 You asked me if I was blessed. Well can’t you see my swag…?

 I am good where I’m at, no need for me to brag.

I have become all women a change I’m proud to see

Just to see me happy and bless I’ve become the woman in me!!